just had my 18th birthday..
didnt really celebrate it a lot..
i know for others..18th birthday is an important event to celebrate..
means tat he/she have grown up..
will be treated as an adult now..
can do things tat they like..bla bla bla..
but for me..
its just a normal + little bit special day..
as..after 29th January 2010..
i m still de same old me..hehe..
just a year older nia..
but i will always remain 15^^..
went to work as usual tat day..
it was my last working day of the month..
recieved my first full month salary..
went to queensbay with jervis n jiun ling..
had a crazy night..
watched tooth fairy..
quite nice..
went home at 11 sumthing..
thn do this do tat + chat..1 sumthing only sleep..
tatz de end of my birthday..
actually on 28th..
i went to ENO hotel for de dinner buffet..
my 'boss'..which is also my piano teacher treat us there..
it is like some kind of appreciation for those who worked there..
ate many things there..
till very very full..
tried big big fresh osyters..
first add with its chilli sause..thn lime..lemon..
in the end i felt tat original taste is de best..
oh ya..i like de salmon oso..not de fresh one..but de fried salmon..hmm..yummy..
de cakes there very nice..
de cheese cake..soft n cheesy..
i saw a chocolate fountain there..
its for de marshmello..
nice..n unique..
i had some ice kacang with ice cream for dessert..after i had some fruit..^^
though its very very full de..but de food there still attracts me a lot..
hehe^^..still thinking of it now..
when they pay i found tat..
it costs around 50++ after 50% discount..horrible..
before we went home i only knew tat it was my teacher's birthday..
swt..
after following her for around 12 years..
me now only know when is her birthday..ish..
but still feel happy as i had celebrated my early birthday with yummy food^^
Sweet 18th Birthday!!!
I'm A Fool
one of the song in de korean movie < you're beautiful>
i like de song a lot..
de lyrics is very touching..
it shows de guy willing to give out everything for de gal..
like it a lot^^
可能因为我是傻瓜，
让我痛苦也没关系，
即使你取笑，说我是没出息的人，
那也没办法，因为我是傻瓜，
我喜欢你，对你好，
只要那样我就很幸福啦，
即使是一次，如果你对我笑，
因为那个微笑，我也很幸福了，
直到她爱的那个人出现为止，
只是这样待在她身边，
为她付出我的爱，就已经很幸福了
我不再奢望什么了
无论什么时候，如果（你）伸手，就能碰到的那个地方，
无论什么时候，如果（你）召唤，就能听到的那个地方，
我不会变化，会在那个地方，
因为我爱着她
因为是我选择的爱情，
即使很痛苦，我也很幸福，
即使是一次，你回头看我的话，
我会因为你回头看我，我会很幸福，
直到她爱的那个人出现为止，
只是这样待在他身边
为她付出我的爱，就已经很幸福了
我不再奢望什么了
无论什么时候，如果（你）伸手，就能碰到的那个地方
无论什么时候，如果（你）召唤，就能听到的那个地方
我不会变化，会在那个地方
因为我爱着她。
我会代替他，守护你，直到他出现为止，
即使是一会儿，我会待在她身边，
即使看着，也很幸福的爱情，
我不在需要什么
总是挨近才可以休息
总是给你，我同一个样子，（意思是我总会对你同样好，）
即使你没有问候一声，就离开我，
我也会很感谢你，送你走，
因为我是傻瓜
CLHS Dragon Boat Tragedy
heard de news bout de tragedy on sun morning..
first felt shock..wondering whether is it true or not..
coz most of my fren were in de team..n no accidents happened all de while..
but soon..i feel worried when i knew it is real..
though i didnt recognise any of them..
but i feel worried for them..
feel de sadness of their family..
coz..they are still young..
only 17..pity for them..
felt so unfair y god wanna take their life so early..
their future is so bright..
they are so brilliant..
stayed at facebook for de whole evening..
keep updating myself on de latest news..
felt heartache when i knew de news bout de death of de teacher n Jason Ch'ng..
de teacher is still so young..
just went out of de society to work..to pay bac his parents..
jason is so outstanding..
no matter in his cocurriculum or studies..
haih..
de next morning..
found in de paper tat one of them..Goh Yi Zhang..
is my primary skul's fren bro..
felt de loss for him..
n one of them..is my fren's cousin..
i knew it well de loss of family members couldnt be healed in a short time..
but still.time will heals..but dunno how ling will it takes only..
coz like me..still felt de loss of my cousin though 3 years had passed..
he left us in a young age..at 21..
tatz y i knew tat feeling well...
still can feel de heartache now..
when i think of him..
saw his pic..
but i knew it...
it is all fate..destiny...
god will have his special arrangements,,
all tat i hope now is they will have a better life in de heaven..
waiting to meet us in de future..
may god be with them all the time..
and hope tat their family will recover soon..from de sadness..
as..they themselves oso do not wish to see their families like tat..
gambatte..
after all these incidents..
i knew tat we should always cherrish everything tat we had now..
de people beside us..
and those whom u loved..
before its too late..
昙花一现..Dutchman's Pipe
人们常用“昙花一现”来形容出现不久，顷刻消逝的事物。
为什么用昙花一现比喻呢？
因为昙花的花开起来大而美丽，白天不开花，要在晚上八九点钟以后才开，
通常花开3-4小时即谢，由于昙花开花的时间很短，开后不久即谢，
故称“昙花一现”。
某一天，我突然发现原来外婆家有种昙花。
一直以来我只知道外婆有种一种花，而且可以拿来做药。
但我不知道原来它是成语“昙花一现”里的昙花……
昙花开花时很美丽，让人忍不住把所有的焦点都放在它身上，
但可惜的是它就是只开那短短的3个小时。
能够把自己最美的一面呈现给人，即使是短短的几个小时，
已足够了。
昙花的花语 : 短暂的美丽、一瞬间永恒
昙花一现，定格记忆。
许久过后依旧不能忘却初见昙花开放的刹那，皎洁如玉的月光下，它就那样轻盈地展开自己的双臂，拥抱这看似美好的世界，如同超脱凡世的精灵，不含一丝一毫的杂念，让人窒息的美。但却又如此短暂。
为这惊艳的美付出的代价，便是生命的短暂。没有眼泪，没有悲伤，没有犹豫，有的只是忠实于自己的倔强。就这样悄悄地绽放又凋谢，留给人无限的感慨。
再艳丽再娇贵的花，最终的命运仍旧是一天一天老去，仍旧是最终凋谢，与其如此，倒不如像昙花，虽然短暂，却可以芳香永留于世，不曾让世俗的残枝败叶玷污了自己的清白，只等来年又开出绚丽的花朵。
昙花的美，在于它所展现的生命的极致。那让人惊心动魄、为之倾倒的绝美无比。大千世界，真正能 打动人心的美，莫过于昙花一现的瞬间。短暂却又可以在心永驻。像是深夜的一杯热茶，抚过泪颊的一双轻柔，面对困难的一次无畏，独上高楼的一次超脱，绝境中 的一次安慰，世俗中的一泪感动，永驻在人心中一般。
不要说昙花的短暂，它们只是服从了自己的内在力量，在最适当的时候，从内心一迸而发，展现给世间一抹惊艳，一点孤傲，一些洒脱。让它们最美的记忆活在人们心里，经历千百年，依旧美丽。
肉体逝去，记忆永存。
不要再流连于世俗的花园，因为没有不败的花；不要再空虚地过着生活，因为那只是行尸走肉。
做一朵昙花吧，就是昙花，留下永存于心灵的一抹孤傲美丽。那才是极致。
所以让人称为 “昙花一现。”
昙花不但美丽，关于它的传说都是凄美的爱情故事。
但深深地感动我的只有第三个传说……
昙花的传说1
昙花原是天上一个小花仙,后来凡心私动喜欢上一个叫做韦陀的小神.玉帝得知后大怒,把昙花变做 一朵小花,让她在每天里只有一个时辰的开花期.昙花非常痴情,她算好韦陀每天晚饭后下山挑水的时间,并选在此时盛开,只希望能借此见心上人一面,于是就有 了“昙花一现,只为韦陀”的传说.
感情不管是一生一世还是瞬间,重要的是,是否是真感情.能一生一世固然好,可有时无法做到一生一世,那么瞬间的真情或许也会让一个人温暖一辈子…
昙花的传说2
昙花又叫韦陀花。韦陀花很特别，总是选在黎明时分朝露初凝的那一刻才绽放，相传昙花和佛祖座下 的韦陀尊者有一段哀怨缠绵的故事，所以昙花又叫韦陀花。传说昙花是一个花神，她每天都开花，四季都很灿烂，她爱上了一个每天为她锄草的小伙子，后来玉帝知 道了这件事情，就大发雷霆，要拆散鸳鸯。玉帝把花神贬为一生只能开一瞬间的花，不让她再和情郎相见，还把那个小伙子送去灵柩山出家，赐名韦陀，让他忘记前 尘，忘记花神。可是花神却忘不了那个年轻的小伙子，她知道每年暮春时分，韦驼尊者都会上山采春露，为佛祖煎茶，就选在那个时候开花！希望能见韦陀尊者一 面，就一次，一次就够了！遗憾的是，春去春来，花开花谢，韦陀还是不认得她！
昙花一现只为韦陀。
昙花的传说3
很久很久以前，在美丽的百花园里，
花神的庇佑下住着各种可爱的花儿，昙花就是其中之一。
娇小的 昙花没有其他姐妹们艳丽的衣裙，华美的装饰，默默无闻，孤零零的，
独自待在园子的角落里。
时间一点一点的过去，来来往往的游人孜孜不倦的惊叹牡丹的华贵， 兰草的高洁，
始终没有人将目光认认真真的投向平凡不起眼的昙花。
直到有一天，他出现了。
他是一个艺术家，当他第一次走进这个园子里时，她就被他吸引了。
修长的身影，清癯的面庞，炯炯 的目光，温柔的笑容，仿佛慈祥的父亲，又如亲密的兄长。
他慢慢的走过来，细细欣赏着这些可人的花儿-大自然的艺术品，
当他的目光终于转向昙花时，她脸红 了。
谁也没有见过一朵花儿脸红的模样，但是她就是脸红了。
她从他的注视中逃脱出来，羞涩的垂下眼帘。
而他，仿佛读懂了她小小的心思，轻轻的伸出手，
温柔的 安抚着她颤动不安的花瓣，恍如安抚着她轻轻绽放的心。
以后每到这个时候，他都会带着春天般温暖的笑容，
走进这个花园，走进昙花的世界，
他细细的端详她，轻 轻抚着她如婴唇般娇嫩的花瓣，
掬起她的淡淡芬芳，长留心际，
而她，每次都会若有期待的等着他的到来，
为他释放早晨第一滴露水的清凉，
傍晚最后一缕花香的恬 淡。
可是为什么，他每一次的到来，
眉间眼底都会不经意的流露淡淡的哀伤，他若有若无的叹息是那样绵 远沉重，
他的心里有一片阴云，好浓密好浓密的阴云，
她看不见也拨不开，他的眉头日复一日的紧锁，
他的脸色也慢慢的变得憔悴，
嘴角长挂的那串微笑也找不到 了，微微闭着，无言的愁苦便从那儿点点的释放出来。
“花神爷爷，请您告诉我，他……他到底怎么了？我知道他有难言的苦楚，万能的爷爷，请您告诉 我，他遭遇了什么不幸？我又要怎么做，才能够帮到他？”
夜深人静的时候，小小的昙花蜷在花神的脚下，一声声的祈求，
“孩子，他……”
“爷爷，爷爷！请您告 诉我！求您了！”可怜的昙花，泪水浸透了花神的膝头，
“孩子，你……你真的很想帮他吗？”
“是的，爷爷！” 昙花认真的点头，坚定的双眸在黑夜里闪闪发亮， 灿若寒星。
“孩子，他是这个王国里最好的画师，刁蛮的王后下令让他画出她从没见过的、世界上最美最美的花儿，如果他办不到，就会在城门那里将他处死，明 天……明天就是最后的期限了”
“如果……如果他办到呢？牡丹姐 姐不是最美的吗？”
“王后天姿国色，她要求花儿比她还美……即使牡丹也做不到”
“这样……”昙花的眼神黯淡下来，
“那……那他，后天就要被处死了吗？不 要……” 昙花伤心的哭着，
“爷爷，万能的爷爷，您一定有办法的，对不对？求您了，救救他，救救他吧！”
“唉，孩子”，花神重重叹了口气，
“即使我们有最美 的花儿，王后妒忌心重，看不惯世界上任何事物比自己美貌，她……她一定会毁了花儿的……”
“我愿意！” 昙花急急的，“爷爷，我愿意以花的精灵起誓！请您， 赋予我美丽吧！”
“孩子，你要想清楚了！花的精灵可以给你最美的容颜，但你的美丽只能绽放一次，在那夜深人静的一瞬间，如夏夜划过天际的流星，一闪即逝， 此后，你将会陷入无休止的黑暗、丑陋和孤独里……”
“我……我愿意！”昙花吟着泪，快乐的笑了。
她穿上了自己最美的衣衫，白云做成的裙摆，露珠做成的耳 坠，细心的弄好裙子的每一个皱褶，让每一个蕾丝都如梦幻的精灵，优雅美丽。
对着镜子，她踮起脚尖，轻轻的舞着，她仿佛看见自己娇弱的生命在一点点的聚集， 凝成晶莹的一滴，柔柔的躺在心际，含苞放，等待着那最灿烂的一刻的来临。
晚上他又来看她了，这一次他的眼里没有了哀伤，
他的神情是那么专注，他怜爱的抚着她的瓣、蕊， 如同抚着他心爱的姑娘，
他整夜整夜的不肯离开她半步，彷佛离开了就再也看不到了，
他要把她一点点牢牢的记在心里，永生永世都不要忘掉。
“他知道自己快要死 了”，昙花伤心的想，
“但是，我不会让他死的，我要让他活着，快乐的活着，我不要他的眼里再有忧郁，不要……”
想到这里，昙花笑了，清丽凄美的笑容，绽放 在寒冷的夜里，恬淡绝尘，足以令百花黯然凋零。
可是她的根也在那一刻缓缓死去，
她看见他的眼里闪耀着喜悦的光芒，看见夜空划过的最后一颗流星，
她看见他的 嘴角重新吟着笑，看见流星过处一抹璀璨的美丽，
然后，她就什么也看不见了，深不见底的黑暗把她包围，
她感到从未有过的孤苦无依，
伸出手，试图抓住什么，才发现身畔萦绕的，
只有虚无和空气，她就一头栽进去，
从此再也没有言语，没有思想，
似乎天地万物都在那一刻消失，
冥冥中，真情却在天地间永恒，
“昙花一现” 的传说如同不老的绝唱，从古至今，吟诵不息。
Working
days after spm..
working working n working...
at first wanted to change a new job..
but feel tat most part time job tat offers to us, post spm graduates
are most likely waiteress, salesgirl..
i think of finding a job in an office..
as an ordinary typist or temporary sec..
but mum told me not to think bout it as most companies dont like to train a worker who works for few months nia..
therefore i gave up finding those job..
before my spm, my ex-piano teacher asked me to go to her day care centre n help..
coz i usually went there to work during holidays..
think since form 2 i worked there de..
but i couldnt decide yet..
coz its very stress working there..
u have to take care a class of around 10 students..
though they are primary students..
but u have to check their homework, every of them, every question
thn later teach a new chapter..
however de students are of different standard, quite difficult to teach..very kek ki..
later on my mom's fren asked me to help in her shop..TUPPERWARE
de job there is quite relaxing..
coz u only have to key in de products n check stocks
but u have to work from mon to sat..9 to 6..
long hrs..n de pay was not very high ( mayb for others its very high de)
de most important thing is i ve got a job only in sat..full day..
in math monkey..
as an assistant teacher..
there quite fun..i learn their method n teach back to their students
furthermore de pay there quite good..
think no where else can give de^^
at first i think of working a day in a week nia..
but rest of my days le??
it will be quite boring at home doing nothing..
so..
in de end..i choosed back to work in my teacher's day care centre..
but i asked to work for half day only..
n my teacher agreed me de..
happy!!
but for de first 2 weeks, i m asked to stay for de whole day as de students there are not used to de rules n regulations there..
so i was asked to guide them..
furthermore my job there are to teach de sec students..
its more relaxing thn teaching de big class primary students..
but i have to re-read form 1 n 2 sejarah, geografi..and kh..
afternoon session there got a sec students..
he cant change to a chinese skul..
so my teacher asked me to saty back in order to teach him..
( he's quite pit lar..result not bad but cant get in chinese skul..now applying for transfer)
plus teach de 2 kindy students there..
both of them are very very cute..
i remmeber once..conversation with a 5 year old girl whom i teach
Me : Kai Qi, come letz start study now
KQ : (With a big smile) Dun wan.
Me : If u dun wan study, wat u wanna do?
KQ : Play toys lo..hehe
Me : sigh...cannot lar..
KQ : yerr..i wanna play lar..
Me : u do this finished i let u play 5 mins..
KQ : OK..(smile again)^^
wat to do with her?
cant scold her..coz she showed her innocent face..
n her big big smile which showed all her teeth..n closed her eyes..笑得见牙不见眼
in addition..she's still small ma..haih..
first week after working...
i fall sick..
mayb not used to working long hrs..
n didnt drink a lot of water while teaching..
have to shout at de students when they are very noisy..
plus not enough of sleep..
suffering!!
but couldnt deny tat de students there are very cute..
only when they are obedient^^
haha
Last Day of 2009
another 30 mins..
we will be in another year..
2010..a brand new year for us..
think back de days I had in de days in 2009..
there were fun and happiness..
joining competitions..chattin with frens..
and days with family..
exciting moments..first time skipping skul ( I was a good girl who had full attendance till form 4)
hactic study life..bcoz of spm..
de days i took out my books to study (few days b4 exam)..
haha..
and mayb a few sadness..
coz after tis year..
i m gonna separate with my schoolmates..
some went to college..
some form 6..in different schools..taking different subjects..in different class..
i think i wont have de days sitting in a group with my frens..
sharing ghost stories..or horrible scene..
playing a fool around with them..
discussing bout our future..
study history together..
memorising together..
though tatz de only year and de only few times we did tat together..
but i leaves me a good memory.
of my last few days in school..
well..
in my last month of 2009..
many things happened
i can say tat my life in this month is very very meaningful..
and will always be remembered
coz it too leaves me a good memory..
firstly..
de trip to melacca..
i discovered many things..
i tried a lot nyonya food..which is very delicious..
and knew tat my grandmother was a noynya..
daddy drove us around melacca..
realised tat though penang n melacca..
both is considered a world historical city..
but melacca really developed de historical places very well..
u can see there are tourists everywhere..
where got like penang..
only a few..
one more thing..
many ppl said I very geng coz i can still go travelling though i will be sitting for my chemistry paper de next day after long tiring journey
secondly..
i went to a charity concert..
n a famous actor..Ron Ng
was one of the artist who will perform..
i felt tat i dont even have de special feeling when meet him..
though everyone was screaming towards him..
including my sis..
same as my melacca trip..
ppl wondering where i find de mood to listen to de concert when i will have my chinese paper..
which is a tough paper de next day...
amazing..
next..
my holiday trip..
tatz de happiest thing happened in this year..
i went up genting highlands with my family..
my extended family..which got around 40++ ppl..
squeezing in a small apartment..
and after tat went to Morib to have BBQ party..
walking along de sea in de dark..
exploring de sea with a torch..finding lotz of interesting stuff
first time waiting for sun rise..
(though we dont really see de sun rising up from de sea)
tatz de only thing tat disapponts me
and not forgetting tat i had had a loong chat with matt while walking along de sea..
oh ya..
almost forgot we had our primary school gathering..
though only half class appeared..
but we have a nice evening there..^^
in 2010..
i hope tat all my frens and family will have wealth, health and happiness..
all the best to all of us^^
Morib Stay
After the morib trip,
we went to Morib..
which my 2nd uncle has a bungalo there..
thus we went there enjoy n have fun again..
the hse is very near to de beach..
think got just around 2km..
so we were quite looking forward to this holiday trip..
we reach there around evening on the 20th dec..
at tat time..my 2nd and 3rd auntie had prepared de stuff for de bbq..
so after we had place our baggage in de room..
we started the fire n start out BBQ..
the thing tat shocked me a lot was matt n his sister, apple were oso present there
coz tat gathering was meant for my family members..
almost all my family members felt weird for their presence..
at first i thought tat i didnt have any chance to meet up him again..
but couldnt imagine he was helping out there^^
haha..
he was there to help out my 3rd auntie for the bbq stuff..
n have fun with us there...
same as us..
he stayed there for a night too..
and will only follow my 3rd uncle back on de next day..
thus we had an enjoyable holiday there..
having fun together..
after tat bbq, matt drove 3rd uncle's car to de sea side..
we went there to enjoy de night scenery..
but there was too dark..
adn our torch light was out of battery de..
so we really cant see de sea a lot..
de only thing i can feel is de warmth of the sea water..
as i learnt in physics,
de heat capacity of water is higher...
haha..
after tat we went home..
and went there again with my other cousins..
this time we brought a few big torch..
haha..
got de experience de...
we planned to catch prawns..
but 6th uncle said de sea now is becoming high tide..
so there wont be any prawns..
therefore we didnt bring anything else..
but when we reach there..
it is not high tide but low tide..
de sea water went down very quickily..
think within 30 mins..
it went down about 200m..
thus we explore de dry land..
its another new n fun experience for us^^
searchin for tiny crabs in de dark..
steppin on de soft sandy beach..
u just dont even knew wat u gonna have under ur feet for de next step..
very adventurous
after back from de beach..
we play poker cards..till 2.30am..
as we have to wake up early for de sun rise..
we didnt continue till very late..
after having 3 hrs sleep..
we woke up sharp at 5.30am..
we went out at 6am..
to de beach..
while waitin for de sun..
me and matt walk along de beach..
we had a nice loong conversation there..
later on we went to another beach which stituated further down de road..
coz my 2nd uncle said de beach there was more beautiful thn de Morib Beach..
thus de whole gang of us went there again..to pantai kelanang
however..
de sea there really disappointed us much..
coz the sea there is full of peices of wood..
made it difficult for us to take off our shoes n walk with bare foot
we stayed at de sea side for de whole morning..
till around 10am only bac to our hse..
when we back..
my auntie told me there is a campside behind de hse..
actually is around de home stay area there..
it is for trainig purpose..
so we decided to have a try on de eqiuptment..
though its very dangerous for us..
coz we didnt take care any safety measures...
n there is no coach keep an eye on us..
it is very sacry..
but very exciting n adventutous..
its like ns training..
coz got flying fox..
at first tot we completed de whole journey thn will finished de..
mana tahu..
there is no exit..
thus..to get down back to de ground..
we have to walk back de path..
horrible...
6th uncle n 3rd uncle starting de fire
BBQing
my satay burned a hole in de paper plate
my satay fan
funny posing
3rd uncle with funny expressions
snowball finally turn his head to de camera
cup cakes^^ made by pei wen sis..
waitin for de sun
random pics
nice sceneny
sunrise
pantai kelanang
de place they rare sparrow to get their bird nest
