~Devil~ gin

I cried like hell just now
Although this is not the first time i stayed outside,
but its the first time i m gonna leave home for 3 months
yess...going to NS
actually, its only 62 days including CNY and other holidays
i used to go camping,
but usually its only 2 or 3 days
even if its outstation,
i can still sms and contact my parents..
no need to wash my own clothes bla bla bla
i noe its time for me to learn all these..
coz i dunno wat will i go for my tertiary education.
mayb hk? sg? or other states in malaysia
still, i have to learn to be independent


I miss granny..
tears rolling down when i think that i have to live alone in the campsite,
leaving granny alone preparing for CNY,
no more granny home-cooked food for 2 months..
i m gonna miss that a lot!!
the thing i worried most is the life over there..
with others tat are 2 years younger than me.
i dont know whether i can mix well with them or not..

neh, i noe that my worries are too over
coz i will be back next week for cny
dunno got how many days holiday..
no matter what,
i will be applying bac on 27th jan,
for the ASEAN interview

just hope that they allow me to go home on cheh 9..
i want to pai ti gong..
i joined every year and i dont wish to miss it!!!

haih...complicated mood now.. =[